Jessica Kelso

In 3 short months, I get to meet that little girl hiding in my belly!! The further we get the more real it becomes. My achy back, feet, and lack of a good night’s sleep could only mean one thing – I’m approaching my third trimester! I spent a portion of our long weekend cleaning and organizing Thrasher’s closet to make room for Nola. Her wardrobe is already half of his and she isn’t even here yet. I can’t wait to see what she’s going to look like in them. We went for a checkup today – she’s measuring right on schedule and everything else seems to be perfect! That’s always a relief to hear. We start going every 2 weeks now, so we’re really getting closer!

This morning at our appointment I was chatting with one of the birth assistants about her and her husband possibly becoming foster parents. I found myself trying to talk her out of it, saying if you have the heart you can’t stick with it. In the beginning of our experience being foster parents. . . I couldn’t say enough good things about signing up and helping these kids out. I couldn’t understand why not everyone wouldn’t want to do it, or at least try it. This morning as I put Thrasher in a car for someone to take him to a visit with his birth mom, I realized why not everyone can do it. We’ve cared for this kid exactly as we would our own. When we were questioned about what we’re planning on doing when Nola arrives by our agency, I was so confused by what they meant. Give him to somebody else? He’s ours…you don’t give your kid away when you have another baby! I have to remember sometimes he’s not officially ours and that’s a painful reminder. Our heart is 100% in this and I’m not sure how other foster parents are able to do it without being fully committed. I prayed for his protection this morning and had to leave it in God’s hands. She didn’t show up to the visit – like usual and I found myself thrilled about that. I used to get so bummed when she didn’t show up because I really wanted a good outcome for them. I wanted her to get better and I wanted him to have a healthy happy life with his mom. But now, after this long of her showing little interest. . . I’m just ready for them to make a decision that’s best for him and I think at this point it’s to stay with us.